It was the first time that Justin went to a gayparty. He started the night with a Long Island Ice Tea which fastly went into his head, though he didn’t eat a lot for the last two days. He went there with a heterosexual girlfriend of him and hoped that Brian, the guy he was having a big crush on, would come to make it a perfect night.
Justin just slept a week ago at Brians’ flat. They met at the trainstation, went home and watched a movie together, which was interrupted by the caresses they were exchanging and which led to a beautiful (no sex) night. Justin didn’t wanted to leave the bed in the morning. He was even scared to fall in love with Brian, though he was constantly thinking of him.
After that, both of them went on with chatting by internet with webcam conferences, because they weren’t living in the same city. But what was strange, was that Brian talked in a different way to Justin after the new year’s eve. The webcam stood off, the conversations got less solicitousness, …
But Justin still hoped, that the feelings he had for Brian, were answered by him. When Justin and his girlfriend went to the cloakroom to grab a cigarette, Justin saw Brian at the door. Like he was looking very annoyed, Justin lost his interest and wanted to enjoy the night in a different way.
As Justin was smoking outside, he saw Brian smoking right next to him. So he started a little chat.
In that moment Justin realized, how much he was feeling for Brian and how much he wanted him. Justin did not leave Brians side all the time. Brian payd two drinks for Justin and so Justin kissed Brians neck and his cheeks and he touched his body all the time. The only thing Justin was waiting for, was for the perfect moment, where he could kiss him on his lips.
When both of them were standing outside and talked to a couple of people, Justin asked Brian if he was bothering him. Brian stepped aside and said that he had to tell Justin something.
“I met someone on the new year’s eve. I don’t want you to hope for more.”
Justin’s world crashed down. He just realized, how much he was attached on Brian. He was also set for a serious relationship. Probably it wouldn’t be so hard, if Brian would have told him, that it was only a one night stand, so Justin wouldn’t have hoped for more.
Justin saw that it was hard for Brian, but it was horrible for Justin, that Brian allowed all the touchings of Justin and that he payed some drinks for him, even though he had a boyfriend.
Justin never felt so fooled. He wanted to have a proof for that and when Brian showed him his mobile and the picture with the guy in the middle and all the hearts surrounding him it was pretty clear. Justin said goodbye and left the party.
Justin just slept a week ago at Brians’ flat. They met at the trainstation, went home and watched a movie together, which was interrupted by the caresses they were exchanging and which led to a beautiful (no sex) night. Justin didn’t wanted to leave the bed in the morning. He was even scared to fall in love with Brian, though he was constantly thinking of him.
After that, both of them went on with chatting by internet with webcam conferences, because they weren’t living in the same city. But what was strange, was that Brian talked in a different way to Justin after the new year’s eve. The webcam stood off, the conversations got less solicitousness, …
But Justin still hoped, that the feelings he had for Brian, were answered by him. When Justin and his girlfriend went to the cloakroom to grab a cigarette, Justin saw Brian at the door. Like he was looking very annoyed, Justin lost his interest and wanted to enjoy the night in a different way.
As Justin was smoking outside, he saw Brian smoking right next to him. So he started a little chat.
In that moment Justin realized, how much he was feeling for Brian and how much he wanted him. Justin did not leave Brians side all the time. Brian payd two drinks for Justin and so Justin kissed Brians neck and his cheeks and he touched his body all the time. The only thing Justin was waiting for, was for the perfect moment, where he could kiss him on his lips.
When both of them were standing outside and talked to a couple of people, Justin asked Brian if he was bothering him. Brian stepped aside and said that he had to tell Justin something.
“I met someone on the new year’s eve. I don’t want you to hope for more.”
Justin’s world crashed down. He just realized, how much he was attached on Brian. He was also set for a serious relationship. Probably it wouldn’t be so hard, if Brian would have told him, that it was only a one night stand, so Justin wouldn’t have hoped for more.
Justin saw that it was hard for Brian, but it was horrible for Justin, that Brian allowed all the touchings of Justin and that he payed some drinks for him, even though he had a boyfriend.
Justin never felt so fooled. He wanted to have a proof for that and when Brian showed him his mobile and the picture with the guy in the middle and all the hearts surrounding him it was pretty clear. Justin said goodbye and left the party.
This is so not justin-ish.
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